In group today, we started examining negative core beliefs. I admit I was nervous and when I had to share, I got teary-eyed. But I made it through sharing my example without breaking down. I was able to restate one of my beliefs and to recognize how unrealistic it was. That’s been happening more and more lately. Whether it’s the cognitive behavior exercises or all the homework we get in group, all the praying I’ve done and do, the love and support of my friends, or the magic still resonating within me from last weekend, I’m getting better. It’s a beautiful feeling. So even though it’s cold and gray, even though the flag at work is at half-mast(how come we don’t do that every time someone gets killed in Oakland or Richmond or Hayward, but that’s a blog for another day), I feel great.
Special shouts to:

• Frannie, my LA chacha, you always take my side, mujer, and you always see the sunny side. Thank you for being Charlotte to my Carrie. You and Javier will be in my prayers.
• Ade, for your wisdom and genuine love for me. You and Jorge inspire me.
• Teesa for being someone who can relate. Now it’s your turn to teach me, kiddo.